Ethan
is jaded.
Prelude
A hope worth hoping for.
Blogging
Give me back my version 2
Ever since I upgraded my IPhone's software to 3.0, it has been encountering a few problems! Inability to sync with my home laptop and now my internal iPod can't play.
So sad. So so sad.
Someone help! :(
Ethan signing off.
So sad. So so sad.
Someone help! :(
Ethan signing off.
Waltzing.
Monday, July 06, 2009;6.7.09
Untitled
A baseless thought can be such a tormenting demon. Drained my energy but kept me restless and impossible to sleep.
The heart ached for another time. Months since the first. Seven to be exact.
Who would have known that this is part and parcel of it. The past one didn't bring me this.
I'm glad. Very glad.
Becos this one feels more real and alive.
I'll be able to sleep soundly tonight.
Cos my angel smiled upon me.
Ethan signing off.
The heart ached for another time. Months since the first. Seven to be exact.
Who would have known that this is part and parcel of it. The past one didn't bring me this.
I'm glad. Very glad.
Becos this one feels more real and alive.
I'll be able to sleep soundly tonight.
Cos my angel smiled upon me.
Ethan signing off.
Waltzing.
Wednesday, July 01, 2009;1.7.09
It's beautiful
If I want to show you anything,
it will be through my eyes.
Ethan signing off.
it will be through my eyes.
Ethan signing off.
Waltzing.
Friday, June 12, 2009;12.6.09
Ramblings
It's a 9 to 6.30 every weekday and it's going to be like this for probably the rest of my life till I can retire. This has sunk into my head I think when I started working, but now it has sunk even deeper. And according to Newton's third law: for every action there is an equal and opposite reaction. The reaction is the feeling of TOTAL SIANZNESS.
There's kosong things to look forward to, except the pay and the weekends. However, my pay is not exactly very high and the weekends are miserably short.
Monday's tomorrow!
I'm already suffering the blues of it.
ERGH!
Ethan signing off.
There's kosong things to look forward to, except the pay and the weekends. However, my pay is not exactly very high and the weekends are miserably short.
Monday's tomorrow!
I'm already suffering the blues of it.
ERGH!
Ethan signing off.
Waltzing.
Sunday, May 17, 2009;17.5.09
Random
Some of my friends say I've a weird eating habit of mixing grapes and rice together. It's delicious you know. Really, why can't we? We put raisins in rice sometimes, and raisins are basically grapes in another form. Heh.
Anyway, I saw an uncle just now during my lunch break pouring kopi into his porridge to eat!
My rice plus grapes combination definitely pales in comparison to the uncle's.
Ethan's weirdness 0 - Uncle's weirdness 1
Darn :/
Ethan signing off.
Anyway, I saw an uncle just now during my lunch break pouring kopi into his porridge to eat!
My rice plus grapes combination definitely pales in comparison to the uncle's.
Ethan's weirdness 0 - Uncle's weirdness 1
Darn :/
Ethan signing off.
Waltzing.
Thursday, April 23, 2009;23.4.09
Untitled
I'm alive because my heart is beating for me.
But I feel more alive when my heart is also beating for someone else.
Ethan signing off.
But I feel more alive when my heart is also beating for someone else.
Ethan signing off.
Waltzing.
;23.4.09
we learn new things everyday
If you are lactose tolerant, you are a mutant.
You had a mutation that allows you to digest lactose.
Normal (read: unmutated) human bodies aren't suppose to digest lactose.
If your body flushes when you drink alcohol, you are a mutant.
You had a mutation that rendered your enzymes inactive in breaking down alcohol into carbon dioxide and water.
Normal (read again: unmutated) human bodies dun flush when they consume alcohol.
I think we have mutants in our midst! :D
Ethan signing off.
You had a mutation that allows you to digest lactose.
Normal (read: unmutated) human bodies aren't suppose to digest lactose.
If your body flushes when you drink alcohol, you are a mutant.
You had a mutation that rendered your enzymes inactive in breaking down alcohol into carbon dioxide and water.
Normal (read again: unmutated) human bodies dun flush when they consume alcohol.
I think we have mutants in our midst! :D
Ethan signing off.
Waltzing.
Saturday, April 11, 2009;11.4.09
really
It's nothing really.
Just that I'm over here, and I want to get over there.
Because over there is a much brighter place than over here.
Metaphorically.
I might lose some things.
But some things are worth losing to get to where you want to be.
We all know after we lose we gain. In some other aspects.
A natural cycle, undeniable.
This process grants happiness.
It should, somehow.
So, it's nothing really. Just a journey to obtain happiness. We do that all the time in many other ways.
Only that this is after 25 years.
This way, this journey...
Probably it's something.
Ethan signing off.
Just that I'm over here, and I want to get over there.
Because over there is a much brighter place than over here.
Metaphorically.
I might lose some things.
But some things are worth losing to get to where you want to be.
We all know after we lose we gain. In some other aspects.
A natural cycle, undeniable.
This process grants happiness.
It should, somehow.
So, it's nothing really. Just a journey to obtain happiness. We do that all the time in many other ways.
Only that this is after 25 years.
This way, this journey...
Probably it's something.
Ethan signing off.
Waltzing.
Tuesday, March 17, 2009;17.3.09
My current mood: Starry
小明星 (電影"流星語"主題曲)
曲：張國榮 詞：林夕 編：Alex San
Little Star跟你飛
不需給我什麼傳奇
Shining Star請給我光
來尋回從前漏眼的欣喜
小明星 繁華相比
會發現誰值得不捨棄
小小明星 原來再珠光寶氣
無法 代你
Little Star給我飛
光得不需要 什麼傳奇
Shining Star多少世紀
才明瞭悠閒是最終隔氣
* 一天流星 與你相比
會發現凡事有著限期
小小明星 原來再珠光寶氣
無法 代你
Repeat *
小小明星 凡人拍不出的戲
令我 沒法 忘記
Ethan signing off
Waltzing.
Thursday, March 12, 2009;12.3.09
ramblings
Right now I'm sitting in my office meeting room waiting for my supplier to come down for training. Arranged time is 12.30pm, but it's already 12.52pm. Whatever happened to punctuality?
My stomach is growling non stop. And I'm freaking cold under this super strong aircon in my office. AND I'm extremely yearning for an afternoon nap.......
12.56pm....
Seconds feel like hours.
EERGH.
Ethan signing off.
My stomach is growling non stop. And I'm freaking cold under this super strong aircon in my office. AND I'm extremely yearning for an afternoon nap.......
12.56pm....
Seconds feel like hours.
EERGH.
Ethan signing off.
Waltzing.
Thursday, March 05, 2009;5.3.09
A sense of direction
As I look around the commuters on the train now, and try to decipher the fuzz all the chattering noise is creating, I think I can hear a somewhat inaudible sound. Faint yet full of direction.
Guess it's a calling. Unfamiliar but recognizable.
Looking at the pattern of the clouds and the direction of the wind, I figure and realize what is it I need to do.
Today.
Without delay.
I need to go for a haircut.
:P
Ethan signing off.
Guess it's a calling. Unfamiliar but recognizable.
Looking at the pattern of the clouds and the direction of the wind, I figure and realize what is it I need to do.
Today.
Without delay.
I need to go for a haircut.
:P
Ethan signing off.
Waltzing.
Tuesday, February 24, 2009;24.2.09
Photoshoot - machiam reunion dinner
Went to take my graduation photoshoot with my family in a studio today. It was quite a huge affair, cos it's a BIG family photoshoot that involved my grandparents and my other cousins who actually graduated long ago. They knew that I was going to take with my grandparents, and so they took this opportunity to take with them as well.
So it was my family with grandparents, their 2 families with my grandparents, and then all the grandchildren graduates with my grandparents. 4 mere photos but it took like 2 hours?
Going to collect the samples next week and hope I look good in all of them! haha.
I really thank God for a closely knitted family and relatives.
:D
Ethan signing off.
Waltzing.
Sunday, February 22, 2009;22.2.09
Testing
I'm actually very sick of the word 'Testing' cos that's exactly what I've been spending bulk of my time in office doing. One product under my management requires me to do testing every now and then, I should change my post from 'Marketing exec' to 'Product Tester'. Heh.
Anyway, I'm currently trying to enable my Iphone to do everything under the sun and thus I'm actually testing out a blogger application right now.
If it works, I'll be able to blog on the go in future and I reckon that's a good thing since I seem to be generating more thoughts when I'm not at home staring at my computer. This will also up my entry numbers as I realize I'm blogging less and less often. I kinda dun want that to happen cos I like to blog and share interestin things to my friends. Haha. Although in reality not much people reads them.
Oh well, to those of you who do, I just hope it has always been an enjoyable task. :)
Come to think of it... Why do I bother to write so much when this is just a test?
Tsk. This better work or I'll be wasting my effort! RAWRH!!!
Ethan signing off.
Anyway, I'm currently trying to enable my Iphone to do everything under the sun and thus I'm actually testing out a blogger application right now.
If it works, I'll be able to blog on the go in future and I reckon that's a good thing since I seem to be generating more thoughts when I'm not at home staring at my computer. This will also up my entry numbers as I realize I'm blogging less and less often. I kinda dun want that to happen cos I like to blog and share interestin things to my friends. Haha. Although in reality not much people reads them.
Oh well, to those of you who do, I just hope it has always been an enjoyable task. :)
Come to think of it... Why do I bother to write so much when this is just a test?
Tsk. This better work or I'll be wasting my effort! RAWRH!!!
Ethan signing off.
Waltzing.
;22.2.09
I know you guys miss me
HEH :3
Ethan signing off.
Waltzing.
Thursday, February 05, 2009;5.2.09
Introducing - 'Daichi no la-li-la'
I just finished watching the anime "Scrapped Princess" all over again, and the entire process was still very enjoyable. It's one of my favourite animes with good plot, good story pace, interesting characters, good art, and hell lots of magic and action. Not forgetting good music at the end of every episode.
This particular anime song is really beautiful as it's a two part harmony. The harmonization is not the regular '3rd apart', but two very independent melodies stringing together, complementing each other.
A very captivating and charming song for an anime. :)
Ethan signing off
This particular anime song is really beautiful as it's a two part harmony. The harmonization is not the regular '3rd apart', but two very independent melodies stringing together, complementing each other.
A very captivating and charming song for an anime. :)
Ethan signing off
Waltzing.
Sunday, January 25, 2009;25.1.09
snippet from work
My blog entries are reducing to little snippets and I'm totally fine with that. Guess I've passed the long-writing-phase into the blog-on-anything-short-phase. Heh.
And so, presenting my first snippet from work.
I call it "No Business"
Damn. Looks super depressing. :/
Ethan signing off
And so, presenting my first snippet from work.
I call it "No Business"
Damn. Looks super depressing. :/
Ethan signing off
Waltzing.
Wednesday, January 21, 2009;21.1.09
random
I'm glad I can't mind read.
Feeding on others' thoughts will be so scary.
I'm sure the world will become a much darker place for me if I know what everyone is thinking about.
Ethan signing off
Feeding on others' thoughts will be so scary.
I'm sure the world will become a much darker place for me if I know what everyone is thinking about.
Ethan signing off
Waltzing.
Tuesday, January 20, 2009;20.1.09
I'm loving it.
Ethan signing off
Waltzing.
Monday, January 19, 2009;19.1.09
Taipei Photos
I've finally gotten my lazy ass up to upload the photos.
Chose a few to share on the blog. Too many!
*comments coming later :P*
*Treat it as a photoblog for now... Heh.*
Ethan signing off
Chose a few to share on the blog. Too many!
*comments coming later :P*
*Treat it as a photoblog for now... Heh.*
Ethan signing off
Waltzing.
Sunday, January 18, 2009;18.1.09
Lovebug from Taipei
Hi dudes! Happy New Year! It's been quite a while since my last post, and the reason behind this hiatus was because yours truly went to Taipei for a holiday during the last 2 weeks of December. I just returned this Tuesday actually. The trip was fantastically fun and I really can't wait to share photos.
BUT I'm feeling really lazy now. Like really really lazy. So I'll put the uploading of photos on a sweet little short hold. :P
Dun be disappointed though, as yours truly has something else to share!
A very nice and catchy song that has been playing quite regularly on the Taiwan channels during my stay there.
It caught on to me like a bug. A Lovebug! Heh.
[Lovebug] - Jonas Brothers
Called you for the first time yesterday
Finally found the missing part of me
Felt so close but you were far away
Left me without anything to say
Now I’m speechless
Over the edge and just breathless
I never thought that I’d catch this
Love bug again
Hopeless head over heels in the moment
I never thought that I’d get hit
With this love bug again
I can’t get your smile out of my mind
I think bout your eyes all the time
Beautiful but you don’t even try
Modesty is just so hard to find
Now I’m speechless
Over the edge and just breathless
I never thought that I’d catch this
Love bug again
Hopeless, head over heels in the moment
I never thought that I’d get hit
With this love bug again
Kissed her for the first time yesterday
Everything I wished that it would be
Suddenly I forgot how to speak
Hopeless, breathless, baby can’t you see
Now I’m…
(Guitar solo!)
Yahow!!!
Now I’m speechless!
Over the edge and just breathless!
I never thought that I’d catch this!
Love bug again!
Now I’m hopeless, head over heels in the moment!
I never thought that I’d get hit!
With this love bug again!
Ohh oho
Love bug again...
Ethan signing off
BUT I'm feeling really lazy now. Like really really lazy. So I'll put the uploading of photos on a sweet little short hold. :P
Dun be disappointed though, as yours truly has something else to share!
A very nice and catchy song that has been playing quite regularly on the Taiwan channels during my stay there.
It caught on to me like a bug. A Lovebug! Heh.
[Lovebug] - Jonas Brothers
Called you for the first time yesterday
Finally found the missing part of me
Felt so close but you were far away
Left me without anything to say
Now I’m speechless
Over the edge and just breathless
I never thought that I’d catch this
Love bug again
Hopeless head over heels in the moment
I never thought that I’d get hit
With this love bug again
I can’t get your smile out of my mind
I think bout your eyes all the time
Beautiful but you don’t even try
Modesty is just so hard to find
Now I’m speechless
Over the edge and just breathless
I never thought that I’d catch this
Love bug again
Hopeless, head over heels in the moment
I never thought that I’d get hit
With this love bug again
Kissed her for the first time yesterday
Everything I wished that it would be
Suddenly I forgot how to speak
Hopeless, breathless, baby can’t you see
Now I’m…
(Guitar solo!)
Yahow!!!
Now I’m speechless!
Over the edge and just breathless!
I never thought that I’d catch this!
Love bug again!
Now I’m hopeless, head over heels in the moment!
I never thought that I’d get hit!
With this love bug again!
Ohh oho
Love bug again...
Ethan signing off
Waltzing.
Saturday, January 03, 2009;3.1.09
evil laughter
After watching the local musical "Snow White and the Seven Dwarves", which was really enjoyable by the way, I think everyone SHOULD have their own set of evil laughter.
Not that it's particularly useful or necessary.
Just to add dramatic effect into your lives.
MUAWHAHAHAHAHAHAH~~
Ethan signing off
Waltzing.
Sunday, December 14, 2008;14.12.08
Painting.
Not only is this painting adorable, it's title is gleefully cute as well.
"Ceasefire" by Jaspher Penuliar. 36 x 36 in. oil on canvas
http://www.galeriejoaquin.com.sg/
Ethan signing off.
"Ceasefire" by Jaspher Penuliar. 36 x 36 in. oil on canvas
http://www.galeriejoaquin.com.sg/
Ethan signing off.
Waltzing.
Thursday, December 11, 2008;11.12.08
every evening sky...
Maybe if my heart and soul is in sync with the universe, then can I know so much more about the things happening around me. Maybe then can I get answers from listening to the wind, or even to the cats' purr.
Never was I the inquisitive one.
I'm always fine to let things happen at my sight without knowing the reason why they actually happen.
Perhaps this indifference has gotten too potent and destroyed a part of me.
And for this, I apologize to my loved ones.
For the inablility to display that all of you mattered.
Maybe that's why you all feel I dun matter as well.
Yet again, it's times like this that I think of You.
Ethan signing off.
Never was I the inquisitive one.
I'm always fine to let things happen at my sight without knowing the reason why they actually happen.
Perhaps this indifference has gotten too potent and destroyed a part of me.
And for this, I apologize to my loved ones.
For the inablility to display that all of you mattered.
Maybe that's why you all feel I dun matter as well.
Yet again, it's times like this that I think of You.
Ethan signing off.
Waltzing.
Tuesday, December 09, 2008;9.12.08
senseless people
"Animals sometimes make a lot more sense than people do."
I totally agree.
Ethan signing off.
Waltzing.
Wednesday, December 03, 2008;3.12.08
random
The office is such a big germ box.
I'm catching all the diseases from my colleagues.
From lost of voice, to cough, to now sorethroat.
I can't wait to embark on my Taiwan getaway.
And breathe some rejuvenating non Singapore air.
For now, it's penny saving mode to salvage some colossal destruction I did to my bank account. :P
I still have nothing much to blog about.
Work kills inspiration.
Ethan signing off.
I'm catching all the diseases from my colleagues.
From lost of voice, to cough, to now sorethroat.
I can't wait to embark on my Taiwan getaway.
And breathe some rejuvenating non Singapore air.
For now, it's penny saving mode to salvage some colossal destruction I did to my bank account. :P
I still have nothing much to blog about.
Work kills inspiration.
Ethan signing off.
Waltzing.
Thursday, November 27, 2008;27.11.08
Heart beat
This song just sprang onto me one day, and I can't get it out of my mind.
It's like there's something that I should get it into my head.
Ethan signing off
It's like there's something that I should get it into my head.
Ethan signing off
Waltzing.
Wednesday, November 12, 2008;12.11.08
magic number what?
And when secrets are not supposed to let others know, we normally share our secrets with a few.
So, when is a secret no longer a secret?
What is the number to hit to undefine it?
Then maybe I can try to hit that quota and do away with secrecy in my life.
Ethan signing off.
So, when is a secret no longer a secret?
What is the number to hit to undefine it?
Then maybe I can try to hit that quota and do away with secrecy in my life.
Ethan signing off.
Waltzing.
Sunday, November 09, 2008;9.11.08
random
Faded.
That's what I've become in some of their lives.
And they were the only friends I had once.
But I've faded.
Ethan signing off
Waltzing.
Wednesday, October 29, 2008;29.10.08
let's talk about the angst
I just went for a haircut and it feels so refreshing right now. Kinda have a lifting off the weight feeling.
Not that my hair weigh heavy, but with the recent humid wave, and the immense workload in office, some weight (apparently any kind) off myself is welcomed.
Now... I'm starting to realize that I'm most vulgar during work. At least there's a higher chance to hear me spew expletives there than anywhere else.
And of cos, sitting behind the steering wheel comes in a close second. I surprise myself sometimes by the degree of hate I have for taxi drivers as a road user. You somehow just can't stop cursing them. heh.
But office angst (that's what i'm going to call it) goes to a whole new level.
The person over at the other end of the phoneline is always a dimwit, I dunno why.
And there are countless hateful people who you have no choice but to work with. I know doing business is all about the relations, but unfortunately, there's this one business associate whom I swear I'll strangle the next time I see him. Or secretly stick pins all over a grassdoll with his name on it. Actualy I think, not only me, my entire department wants him either less hateful, or dead altogether. >:P
Normally I find myself incapable of holding on to hatred as it's really a pointless emotion detrimental only to oneself. I dunno why, however, it seems so much easier to grow horns than to have a halo in the office. It's like life becomes a little less beautiful in that space.
But I guess, taking aside Facebook and MSN, it's stuff like this that makes office life less mundane than it can lethally be.
Oh and it's official. I HATE EXCEL.
Ethan signing off.
Not that my hair weigh heavy, but with the recent humid wave, and the immense workload in office, some weight (apparently any kind) off myself is welcomed.
Now... I'm starting to realize that I'm most vulgar during work. At least there's a higher chance to hear me spew expletives there than anywhere else.
And of cos, sitting behind the steering wheel comes in a close second. I surprise myself sometimes by the degree of hate I have for taxi drivers as a road user. You somehow just can't stop cursing them. heh.
But office angst (that's what i'm going to call it) goes to a whole new level.
The person over at the other end of the phoneline is always a dimwit, I dunno why.
And there are countless hateful people who you have no choice but to work with. I know doing business is all about the relations, but unfortunately, there's this one business associate whom I swear I'll strangle the next time I see him. Or secretly stick pins all over a grassdoll with his name on it. Actualy I think, not only me, my entire department wants him either less hateful, or dead altogether. >:P
Normally I find myself incapable of holding on to hatred as it's really a pointless emotion detrimental only to oneself. I dunno why, however, it seems so much easier to grow horns than to have a halo in the office. It's like life becomes a little less beautiful in that space.
But I guess, taking aside Facebook and MSN, it's stuff like this that makes office life less mundane than it can lethally be.
Oh and it's official. I HATE EXCEL.
Ethan signing off.
Waltzing.
Wednesday, October 22, 2008;22.10.08
recent work
So far, October has been a mad rushing month at my workplace. There are events lined up back to back for almost every single day of the week. I've had 2 such weeks already and this week will not be any different.
On one hand it's kind of good as time passes faster when you're occupied with things, but on the other hand it's not so good when there's not much time to even take a breather and meal times are irregular.
Work's still not too bad and kind of fun except that the higher heads are setting you quotas and goals which, sometimes, you don't know how to achieve. And that is part of assessment for performance bonus at the end of the year. Looks like it's not that easy to achieve that freaking bonus.
Although, it isn't really much of my business now, as I'm still under the probation period and working towards confirmation. No bonus for me yet.
ok wait... den why the hell I'm working my ass off now...
Heh.
Ethan signing off
On one hand it's kind of good as time passes faster when you're occupied with things, but on the other hand it's not so good when there's not much time to even take a breather and meal times are irregular.
Work's still not too bad and kind of fun except that the higher heads are setting you quotas and goals which, sometimes, you don't know how to achieve. And that is part of assessment for performance bonus at the end of the year. Looks like it's not that easy to achieve that freaking bonus.
Although, it isn't really much of my business now, as I'm still under the probation period and working towards confirmation. No bonus for me yet.
ok wait... den why the hell I'm working my ass off now...
Heh.
Ethan signing off
Waltzing.
Sunday, October 19, 2008;19.10.08
Reflections of a Skyline
Another video which I found in somebody else's blog, and I can't help but feel that I needed to show this to all my friends out there.
A video about the ongoing, neverending love.
Ethan signing off
A video about the ongoing, neverending love.
Ethan signing off
Waltzing.
Thursday, October 02, 2008;2.10.08
prom dance and rain dance
Was at Mind Cafe the other day with my bunch of friends and we played 'Quelf', a wacky game that makes the players do outright nonsensical things in order to win the game. Basically, it's like a game FULL of forfeits.
Below are the 2 funniest forfeits we had to do, and was captured by a friend with his handphone.
The videos are the wrong way up so you'll have to tilt your head to watch it properly.
:P
This first one has me dancing a prom dance with a partner (another player) for one minute.
My friend was kinda embarassed, but I assured him that this is not the worst of the tasks. I've done wackier ones!
This second one has my friend perform a rain dance complete with chanting and gibberish shouting. It's stated in the forfeit that if it REALLY starts to rain when he dances the rain dance, he wins the game immediately. haha.
It's great to let down your hair once in a while :D
Ethan signing off.
Below are the 2 funniest forfeits we had to do, and was captured by a friend with his handphone.
The videos are the wrong way up so you'll have to tilt your head to watch it properly.
:P
This first one has me dancing a prom dance with a partner (another player) for one minute.
My friend was kinda embarassed, but I assured him that this is not the worst of the tasks. I've done wackier ones!
This second one has my friend perform a rain dance complete with chanting and gibberish shouting. It's stated in the forfeit that if it REALLY starts to rain when he dances the rain dance, he wins the game immediately. haha.
It's great to let down your hair once in a while :D
Ethan signing off.
Waltzing.
Wednesday, October 01, 2008;1.10.08
if u're happy, and u know it, don't just clap ur hands.
I think different people show their smiles differently.
Some show it on the face with their lips.
Some show it on the face with their eyes.
Some show it on the face with the uplifting of the brows.
Some show it with their tears even.
Others show it with their body gestures.
Some with their hands, some with their hugs.
A few verbalise their smiles, with words, with songs, or with exclaims.
There are also smiles which are non visible, but still can be clearly felt.
And because smiles can be so easily made by a part of the body, they may just be facades.
A smiling skin is not a smiling soul.
So when shall we start to smile with our whole being?
Ethan signing off
Some show it on the face with their lips.
Some show it on the face with their eyes.
Some show it on the face with the uplifting of the brows.
Some show it with their tears even.
Others show it with their body gestures.
Some with their hands, some with their hugs.
A few verbalise their smiles, with words, with songs, or with exclaims.
There are also smiles which are non visible, but still can be clearly felt.
And because smiles can be so easily made by a part of the body, they may just be facades.
A smiling skin is not a smiling soul.
So when shall we start to smile with our whole being?
Ethan signing off
Waltzing.
Sunday, September 28, 2008;28.9.08
A month
The feeling is strange.
It's when you thought that this must be the maximum that you can experience, you are given more, and you, instead of getting overwhelmed, feel good and keep on wondering what is the limit that you can absorb till.
But it doesn't stop and keeps on surging towards and into you.
And so you keep on feeling good and keep on wondering.
The feeling is strange indeed.
Ethan signing off.
It's when you thought that this must be the maximum that you can experience, you are given more, and you, instead of getting overwhelmed, feel good and keep on wondering what is the limit that you can absorb till.
But it doesn't stop and keeps on surging towards and into you.
And so you keep on feeling good and keep on wondering.
The feeling is strange indeed.
Ethan signing off.
Waltzing.
Monday, September 22, 2008;22.9.08
Eric Whitacre - Water Night
My most favouritest piece of all time. :)
Set your volume to the loudest! Trust me, you'll fall in love with the clashing harmony.
I've already posted this on my facebook, but I have to post it here too.
Just HAVE to.
Let me see how I can set this to my ringtone and sms tone.
Hmmmm... alarm tone? Heh. Think it'll just make me fall deeper into sleep.
I can't get enough of this...
Ethan signing off.
Waltzing.
Tuesday, September 16, 2008;16.9.08
random
It's the first day of my second week at work and thanks to my previous ICT in August which changed my bio clock, this waking up early and sleeping early regime didn't take its toil on me.
It's the ocean of rushing-to-work human crowd that needs more of a getting used to. People squeeze, step on others' feet, push their way around, and even jab their elbows into others', just to get onto the train. >:/
I still haven gotten used to the deafening shuffling noise made by the crowds' shoes though. And you know how loud those heeled working shoes can get.
Mornings are supposed to be quiet and peaceful.
How can you start a day with so much irritation?
Now I know why pple die younger.
Ethan signing off.
It's the ocean of rushing-to-work human crowd that needs more of a getting used to. People squeeze, step on others' feet, push their way around, and even jab their elbows into others', just to get onto the train. >:/
I still haven gotten used to the deafening shuffling noise made by the crowds' shoes though. And you know how loud those heeled working shoes can get.
Mornings are supposed to be quiet and peaceful.
How can you start a day with so much irritation?
Now I know why pple die younger.
Ethan signing off.
Waltzing.
Monday, September 08, 2008;8.9.08
:D
Woke up in the morning, received an sms, and then received a really pleasant surprise.
Nothing else to say other than I'm really touched.
Touched by the gesture, the care, and the love.
And it's definitely the best thing I've ever felt in a long long time.
Ethan signing off.
Nothing else to say other than I'm really touched.
Touched by the gesture, the care, and the love.
And it's definitely the best thing I've ever felt in a long long time.
Ethan signing off.
Waltzing.
Wednesday, September 03, 2008;3.9.08
Kiwi!
I stumbled upon this video in someone's blog, and this animation, though simple in its visual delivery, touched me deeply with its message.
Some dreams are really worth dying for.
Ethan signing off
Some dreams are really worth dying for.
Ethan signing off
Waltzing.
Monday, August 25, 2008;25.8.08
mine
I think all of us have territories and things in the house tat belongs to individual members.
Like the kitchen's Mum's, and the desktop's my sis's, the sound systems are my Dad's, the living room area closest to the windows is my Mum's,.... you know, these kind of territorial distribution.
And sadly, I just realise that my brother owns only the half of the bedroom area we share. :P
On the other hand, areas and things under my 'jurisdiction' includes the piano area, my other half of the bedroom area, and...
all the ice-cream in the fridge.
:D
Ethan signing off.
Like the kitchen's Mum's, and the desktop's my sis's, the sound systems are my Dad's, the living room area closest to the windows is my Mum's,.... you know, these kind of territorial distribution.
And sadly, I just realise that my brother owns only the half of the bedroom area we share. :P
On the other hand, areas and things under my 'jurisdiction' includes the piano area, my other half of the bedroom area, and...
all the ice-cream in the fridge.
:D
Ethan signing off.
Waltzing.
Thursday, August 21, 2008;21.8.08
wake me up when it ends
One week of ICT has passed. And all is the same in this organization we call the SAF.
"Rush to wait. Wait to rush." seems to be its undying motto. First day of ICT was spent waiting from 9am to 5pm in a training shed doing nothing.
What's worse? We were encouraged to stay out everyday for the first week, as there weren't enough beds allocated for us. 27 beds for 70 plus soldiers.
Brilliant. :/
Something more brilliant's coming my way though.
Tmr is the start of our 7 days outfield mission. Complete with controllers and live enemies and camo on and heli insertions and Lim Chu Kang 'camping'...
All these spell nothing but SIONGNESS in font size 72.
They dun spare us NSmen at all sia.
And if you guys know this popular song by Green Day, I'll be singing to that tune, but I'll be changing the song title to "Wake Me Up When 7 Days Mission Ends".
Join me in the singing if you will.
Oh! And pray that it'll not rain for the next 7 days.
:/
Ethan signing off.
"Rush to wait. Wait to rush." seems to be its undying motto. First day of ICT was spent waiting from 9am to 5pm in a training shed doing nothing.
What's worse? We were encouraged to stay out everyday for the first week, as there weren't enough beds allocated for us. 27 beds for 70 plus soldiers.
Brilliant. :/
Something more brilliant's coming my way though.
Tmr is the start of our 7 days outfield mission. Complete with controllers and live enemies and camo on and heli insertions and Lim Chu Kang 'camping'...
All these spell nothing but SIONGNESS in font size 72.
They dun spare us NSmen at all sia.
And if you guys know this popular song by Green Day, I'll be singing to that tune, but I'll be changing the song title to "Wake Me Up When 7 Days Mission Ends".
Join me in the singing if you will.
Oh! And pray that it'll not rain for the next 7 days.
:/
Ethan signing off.
Waltzing.
Sunday, August 10, 2008;10.8.08
like a ghost
Met up with the choir gang for Barbara's belated birthday gathering. The guys all bailed out the last minute leaving me as the only thorn among the hibiscuses (I can't bring myself to call them roses >:P Ha! But then again, hibiscuses dun have thorns... oh well...).
Anyway it was a great meeting up although I couldn't really participate much in the girly topics of conversation. Still, I MIAed for a while (according to them) and so having a meal together with them is really good time passed.
Seriously, choir gang gatherings ALWAYS make me miss the fun old TPJC choir days.
Those are unforgettable memories...
I totally like this photo.
The girls were planning to take this while I was away at the toilet, but fortunately I came back just in time to squeeze my head at the background without them knowing and went back to my seat quietly. They were shocked to see a face when they reviewed the photo, thought it was a ghost at first sight. haha.
Of cos they realize the next moment that it's me. Cos there's no such thing as a handsome ghost. heh.
Moral of the story?
No one, and I mean NO ONE, excludes Mr Ethan Choo from a photo! >:D
Ethan signing off
Waltzing.
Thursday, July 24, 2008;24.7.08
they no heart me. boo....
I tell you, rain clouds are mutants. Psychics, to be more specific. It's like they can read my mind, and always decide to pour when I want to step out of house.
No... they won't rain when I'm staying at home, but once I want to go out, they rain! >:(
Irritating.
I should get myself a helmet like Magneto to protect against these devilous psychic rain clouds.
On an equally mood dampening note, I received a letter from Traffic Police a few days back informing me that I committed an offence of:
"PARK WITHIN A DEMERIT POINTS NO PARKING ZONE UNDER RULE 24A ROAD TRAFFIC RULES".
That basically means I'm fined $120 with 3 demerit points.
Great. Just great. >:/
Parking pontianaks! You suck!
And I read thru again wat I've written so far only to come to one conclusion.
I'm unloved.
Ugh...
Kean signing off
No... they won't rain when I'm staying at home, but once I want to go out, they rain! >:(
Irritating.
I should get myself a helmet like Magneto to protect against these devilous psychic rain clouds.
On an equally mood dampening note, I received a letter from Traffic Police a few days back informing me that I committed an offence of:
"PARK WITHIN A DEMERIT POINTS NO PARKING ZONE UNDER RULE 24A ROAD TRAFFIC RULES".
That basically means I'm fined $120 with 3 demerit points.
Great. Just great. >:/
Parking pontianaks! You suck!
And I read thru again wat I've written so far only to come to one conclusion.
I'm unloved.
Ugh...
Kean signing off
Waltzing.
Saturday, July 19, 2008;19.7.08
piano composition - [Regret]
If you guys remember, I mentioned about the emotion regret in one of my recent posts, and expressed how I dun allow it to befall unto my life.
Of cos, I didn't immediately have that thinking embedded into me from birth.
It was a certain event that happened a certain day which straightened my thoughts.
I composed a melody after that happening, threw in all the regret I felt into the composition, and told myself I'll never ever regret the rest of my life.
So below is my piano composition which is aptly titled [Regret], and if you click the play button, you'll hear the melody which is one of the compasses of my life.
Incidentally, I've another piano composition which I threw in all my tears, and it's the melody that made Ethan tearless ever since.
But that's another 'compass' for another entry.
Ethan signing off
Of cos, I didn't immediately have that thinking embedded into me from birth.
It was a certain event that happened a certain day which straightened my thoughts.
I composed a melody after that happening, threw in all the regret I felt into the composition, and told myself I'll never ever regret the rest of my life.
So below is my piano composition which is aptly titled [Regret], and if you click the play button, you'll hear the melody which is one of the compasses of my life.
Incidentally, I've another piano composition which I threw in all my tears, and it's the melody that made Ethan tearless ever since.
But that's another 'compass' for another entry.
Ethan signing off
Waltzing.
Friday, July 11, 2008;11.7.08
lesson learnt
Better check whether you have a nose block before spraying on perfume or cologne.
......
If not you'll end up like me, spray so much thinking there's no smell, but in actual fact I'm so scented the whole neighborhood can smell me. :/
Ethan signing off
......
If not you'll end up like me, spray so much thinking there's no smell, but in actual fact I'm so scented the whole neighborhood can smell me. :/
Ethan signing off
Waltzing.
Monday, July 07, 2008;7.7.08
during these nights
Laptop's wireless connection is lost again for quite a number of days le, which I suspect is due to a hardware prob in the lappie. I'm not really sure, cos I'm such a computer idiot.
So now I can only log on to the internet and msn during the afternoons for my sis dominates the desktop at night, and that makes me feel so disconnected from some of my friends whom I only meet and chat online at night. It's a freaking sign to show I depend on the internet a tad too much.
So these few 'world-wide-webless' days I've been using my good for nothing lappie to rewatch videos and movies which I've saved, and that basically saved me from the 'petrification of boredom' during the nights.
All right, for the uneducated, to petrify means to turn into stone in the gaming world, or at least in the Final Fantasy world. You basically can't take any action till you're cured with Golden Needles or Remedies.
...
Ok, I'm bored and I feel stupid talking about all these gaming stuff to non-gaming dudes. :/
Anyway, I found my harmonica that my grandfather gave me when I was in primary school and it still looks surprisingly new despite its age. 15 yrs! But of cos, that can be explained by me never ever really touching it.
I picked it up again yesterday and after like one whole night of irritating my family members with inaccurate pitch, I finally can get the hang of blowing the melody of "望春风" (Wang4 Chun1 Feng1).
Harmonica sounds quite mesmerising I'd say. It's like it makes every song blown feel a little depressed, but still beautiful in the whole.
Maybe I'll upload a video of me doing some harmonicing soon. haha. Just maybe.
Of cos, that'll be after my wireless is recovered from my lappie.
And I hope is SOON. :)
Ethan signing off
So now I can only log on to the internet and msn during the afternoons for my sis dominates the desktop at night, and that makes me feel so disconnected from some of my friends whom I only meet and chat online at night. It's a freaking sign to show I depend on the internet a tad too much.
So these few 'world-wide-webless' days I've been using my good for nothing lappie to rewatch videos and movies which I've saved, and that basically saved me from the 'petrification of boredom' during the nights.
All right, for the uneducated, to petrify means to turn into stone in the gaming world, or at least in the Final Fantasy world. You basically can't take any action till you're cured with Golden Needles or Remedies.
...
Ok, I'm bored and I feel stupid talking about all these gaming stuff to non-gaming dudes. :/
Anyway, I found my harmonica that my grandfather gave me when I was in primary school and it still looks surprisingly new despite its age. 15 yrs! But of cos, that can be explained by me never ever really touching it.
I picked it up again yesterday and after like one whole night of irritating my family members with inaccurate pitch, I finally can get the hang of blowing the melody of "望春风" (Wang4 Chun1 Feng1).
Harmonica sounds quite mesmerising I'd say. It's like it makes every song blown feel a little depressed, but still beautiful in the whole.
Maybe I'll upload a video of me doing some harmonicing soon. haha. Just maybe.
Of cos, that'll be after my wireless is recovered from my lappie.
And I hope is SOON. :)
Ethan signing off
Waltzing.
Friday, July 04, 2008;4.7.08
ke you ke wu
I spent the last weekend over at Benny's chalet with a bunch of friends and it was a hell load of fun. We cooked, we bbqed, we played Wii till the wee hours, we played mahjong till I lost so much (grrr!), we visited a temple, we went shopping, we drank only green tea for 3 days...
Although more than half of the bunch of friends I only met there at the chalet, they were so fun loving I cliqued with them really well.
And it came to a point when I realize why be a dispensable friend to some when you can have so much more lovable friends out there who will be appreciative of you...
Ethan signing off
Although more than half of the bunch of friends I only met there at the chalet, they were so fun loving I cliqued with them really well.
And it came to a point when I realize why be a dispensable friend to some when you can have so much more lovable friends out there who will be appreciative of you...
Ethan signing off
Waltzing.
Monday, June 23, 2008;23.6.08
a linear graph
There are many kinds of motivations to do something. And different people depend on different kinds for the drive.
Some on emotions, others on logic; some use courage, others need fear; some are motivated by wanting to prove themselves, others are motivated by wanting to invalidate a point; some act on their own, others require peer pressure...
I think it's useful to identify which are the ones that drives us the most, so that we're in better control of ourselves. A tool that's great for manipulation too, if you can identify the forces behind the people around you.
And with all that, I just realized I've got compulsive controlling behaviour.
Not on others though, but on myself.
To be more specific, I think I'm a compulsive emotion controller.
To an extent that I can't fully experience the ups and downs of my whole emotion spectrum. And that scares me sometimes, and it sucks, and I hate it.
If you're to plot my emotion peaks and troughs on a graph, I bet it's close to linear.
Yes. I'm THAT boring. :/
Ethan signing off
Some on emotions, others on logic; some use courage, others need fear; some are motivated by wanting to prove themselves, others are motivated by wanting to invalidate a point; some act on their own, others require peer pressure...
I think it's useful to identify which are the ones that drives us the most, so that we're in better control of ourselves. A tool that's great for manipulation too, if you can identify the forces behind the people around you.
And with all that, I just realized I've got compulsive controlling behaviour.
Not on others though, but on myself.
To be more specific, I think I'm a compulsive emotion controller.
To an extent that I can't fully experience the ups and downs of my whole emotion spectrum. And that scares me sometimes, and it sucks, and I hate it.
If you're to plot my emotion peaks and troughs on a graph, I bet it's close to linear.
Yes. I'm THAT boring. :/
Ethan signing off
Waltzing.
Wednesday, June 18, 2008;18.6.08
Someone's questions
"If we can love someone so much, how will we be able to handle it the one day when we are separated?
And, if separation is a part of life, is it possible that we can love someone and never be afraid of losing them?
At the same time, is it possible that we can live our entire life without loving anyone at all?"
- Mew
Ethan signing off.
And, if separation is a part of life, is it possible that we can love someone and never be afraid of losing them?
At the same time, is it possible that we can live our entire life without loving anyone at all?"
- Mew
Ethan signing off.
Waltzing.
Friday, June 13, 2008;13.6.08
doodle - one winged
I took up my drawing pens again and doodled.
And this is one of the self potrait doodles that I'm quite satisfied with.
Although my itchy hands went to write some words and, in my opinion, completely destroyed the work.
Oh well. Perfection is overrated anyway.
And this actually reveals to you guys the thoughts that went through my head when I drew this.
Tell me there's beauty in imperfection too.
And to answer my own question... "but how?"
I've done up my resume as the first step to fly. :)
Ethan signing off
Waltzing.
Sunday, June 08, 2008;8.6.08
Introducing... Chage & Aska
Ok. This shouldn't be called an introduction cos most people should be familiar with this Japanese group Chage & Aska.
Their famed work will be the 'oh-so-classic' "Say Yes", which is still up to date one of my top favourites japanese song. Truth be told, that was the only song of theirs which I actually can remember of.
So, I went to Imeem to search for their music, something which I'm doing very often nowadays. It's weird how come I didn't discover the usefulness of Imeem till recently. And I discovered another 2 of their songs which are very familiar. I've heard them before, but I didn't know that it's sung by Chage & Aska. VERY NICE!
And your friendly neighborhood blogger boy compiled them into a playlist for all to listen.
Talk about altruism!! hah! :P
Ethan signing off.
Their famed work will be the 'oh-so-classic' "Say Yes", which is still up to date one of my top favourites japanese song. Truth be told, that was the only song of theirs which I actually can remember of.
So, I went to Imeem to search for their music, something which I'm doing very often nowadays. It's weird how come I didn't discover the usefulness of Imeem till recently. And I discovered another 2 of their songs which are very familiar. I've heard them before, but I didn't know that it's sung by Chage & Aska. VERY NICE!
And your friendly neighborhood blogger boy compiled them into a playlist for all to listen.
Talk about altruism!! hah! :P
Ethan signing off.
Waltzing.
Monday, June 02, 2008;2.6.08
Let's talk about regret
The first thing I must say is that it is a very useless emotion.
Regret doesn't change anything, and it only makes you feel worse. That's the reason I dun believe in regretting.
Whatever choices I've made, I'll stand by them and accept the consequences. Even if they are mistakes, I'll learn through the experience and hope to make better choices in future.
People tend to look back and wish that they can change some of their decisions at some point of time. But I seriously believe that even if time is allowed to be reversed, and without knowing the consequences beforehand, I would have made the same decisions.
Things wouldn't have happened differently for I am the same person at that time making that decision. I would have followed the same mental processes during the consideration part and derived at the same result.
That's why time reversal doesn't exist. Becos I think God knows that nothing will change even if time reversed.
So.
Regret is really utterly useless.
I will not allow it in my life becos I personally feel it doesn't have any constructive purpose at all.
Ethan signing off.
Regret doesn't change anything, and it only makes you feel worse. That's the reason I dun believe in regretting.
Whatever choices I've made, I'll stand by them and accept the consequences. Even if they are mistakes, I'll learn through the experience and hope to make better choices in future.
People tend to look back and wish that they can change some of their decisions at some point of time. But I seriously believe that even if time is allowed to be reversed, and without knowing the consequences beforehand, I would have made the same decisions.
Things wouldn't have happened differently for I am the same person at that time making that decision. I would have followed the same mental processes during the consideration part and derived at the same result.
That's why time reversal doesn't exist. Becos I think God knows that nothing will change even if time reversed.
So.
Regret is really utterly useless.
I will not allow it in my life becos I personally feel it doesn't have any constructive purpose at all.
Ethan signing off.
Waltzing.
Tuesday, May 27, 2008;27.5.08
music on the face
I dunno what's going on in the minds of the people around me anymore.
I used to be quite discerning you know. I lost it somehow, not totally, but I'm less able to tell now.
What is exactly going on?
Am I suppose to know something or not suppose to know anything?
How am I suppose to react to all these happening?
Can you all show your thoughts more obviously?
Like write them on the face. PLEASE.
Anyway, I tried to shut down the music on my blog for a while, cos I thought I needed silence.
I was wrong. My blog without music feels weird.
So music's back. Turn it off yourself if you dun like it.
Ethan signing off
I used to be quite discerning you know. I lost it somehow, not totally, but I'm less able to tell now.
What is exactly going on?
Am I suppose to know something or not suppose to know anything?
How am I suppose to react to all these happening?
Can you all show your thoughts more obviously?
Like write them on the face. PLEASE.
Anyway, I tried to shut down the music on my blog for a while, cos I thought I needed silence.
I was wrong. My blog without music feels weird.
So music's back. Turn it off yourself if you dun like it.
Ethan signing off
Waltzing.
Sunday, May 25, 2008;25.5.08
regarding recent news
We really should thank the heavens that Singapore is a place free from natural disasters.
But more often than not, we gripe about how boring it is.
We ought to have our priorities rechecked.
Ethan signing off.
But more often than not, we gripe about how boring it is.
We ought to have our priorities rechecked.
Ethan signing off.
Waltzing.
Wednesday, May 21, 2008;21.5.08
9 crimes - Damien Rice
Ethan signing off.
Waltzing.
Tuesday, May 20, 2008;20.5.08
Learning... dissociative identity disorder
I'm currently interested in the study of Dissociative Identity Disorder, which is also commonly known as split personality. This is because I recently watched a chinese movie about a character who suffers from such a disorder, and I'm also currently reading the movie novel.
Unlike what most of my friends told me, my research showed that Split Personality (Dissociative Identity Disorder) and Schizophrenia are different things.
Dissociative Identity Disorder is a condition which a single person displays multiple distinct identities or personalities, each with its own pattern of perceiving and interacting with the environment. And these personalities routinely take control of the individual's behavior with an associated memory loss that goes beyond normal forgetfulness.
It intrigues me how the human brain allows multiple personalities to inhibit a body without 'them' (the personalities) knowing the existence of 'each other'. I know one goes to sleep when the other is awake, and their existence can be very much hidden, but how is the body able to manage the personality difference? The human brain is really very powerful.
The more I think, the more I realize I actually did experience one such 'split personality' moment. I know it's really far from the actual disorder, but I would think it's quite a similar feeling.
I dunno whether I've shared to everyone the first time I was totally drunk from drinking during my army days. It happened on the eve of my birthday and me and my commanders kind of went drinking in the mess.
Anyway, because it's my first time drinking so much alcohol, I got terribly drunk and my mind somehow 'switched off' my conscience. I only awoke several hours later in the middle of the night to find myself lying on bed in my bunk. The last scene I could recall in the mess was holding a mug of beer toasting to some guy. I thought I blacked out after that, because there's this few hours gap in my memory that I cannot remember.
But according to the other commanders I didn't fall asleep or black out, but continued to drink with them and even cut a birthday cake during the hours of 'memory gap' that I cannot recall. They said I didn't really cut the cake but chopped up the cake quite angstly and I even got violent and hit a few of my friends.
So is this the other violent alter personality that took over my body when my 'actual' personality went to sleep? Because my body was still functioning normally, and I could chat and interact with my friends without my conscience being aware of it.
So are moments of subconscience that we experience at times actually under the control of the other alter personality?
Truthfully, I really want to see that violent side of me who surfaced while I wasn't aware that night I was drunk.
But I know I can't. Cos as long as I'm 'awake', he'll be 'sleeping' bah. :P
Ethan signing off.
Unlike what most of my friends told me, my research showed that Split Personality (Dissociative Identity Disorder) and Schizophrenia are different things.
Dissociative Identity Disorder is a condition which a single person displays multiple distinct identities or personalities, each with its own pattern of perceiving and interacting with the environment. And these personalities routinely take control of the individual's behavior with an associated memory loss that goes beyond normal forgetfulness.
It intrigues me how the human brain allows multiple personalities to inhibit a body without 'them' (the personalities) knowing the existence of 'each other'. I know one goes to sleep when the other is awake, and their existence can be very much hidden, but how is the body able to manage the personality difference? The human brain is really very powerful.
The more I think, the more I realize I actually did experience one such 'split personality' moment. I know it's really far from the actual disorder, but I would think it's quite a similar feeling.
I dunno whether I've shared to everyone the first time I was totally drunk from drinking during my army days. It happened on the eve of my birthday and me and my commanders kind of went drinking in the mess.
Anyway, because it's my first time drinking so much alcohol, I got terribly drunk and my mind somehow 'switched off' my conscience. I only awoke several hours later in the middle of the night to find myself lying on bed in my bunk. The last scene I could recall in the mess was holding a mug of beer toasting to some guy. I thought I blacked out after that, because there's this few hours gap in my memory that I cannot remember.
But according to the other commanders I didn't fall asleep or black out, but continued to drink with them and even cut a birthday cake during the hours of 'memory gap' that I cannot recall. They said I didn't really cut the cake but chopped up the cake quite angstly and I even got violent and hit a few of my friends.
So is this the other violent alter personality that took over my body when my 'actual' personality went to sleep? Because my body was still functioning normally, and I could chat and interact with my friends without my conscience being aware of it.
So are moments of subconscience that we experience at times actually under the control of the other alter personality?
Truthfully, I really want to see that violent side of me who surfaced while I wasn't aware that night I was drunk.
But I know I can't. Cos as long as I'm 'awake', he'll be 'sleeping' bah. :P
Ethan signing off.
Waltzing.
Wednesday, May 07, 2008;7.5.08
Photo update: Mitch's Birthday
I'm not a good photographer. Cos I belong to those pple who bring their cameras but never ever use them, always relying on others to take photos with their cameras. Yes, I admit I'm lazy but then again, there's no need for more than one photographers do we? :P
Cheers to Crystal who's always equipped with a camera and ever ready to snap it away.
And I realize that she has this uncanny ability to take unexpected shots of me. heh.
Mitch's Bday gathering at Rice Table and then Acid Bar.
Cat, Mitch, Viv, and I
Unexpected shot number 1. Viv most probably sharing another of her stories (again), and me taking a bite from my kebab.
Viv and I looking Oh-so-happy, cos the food at Rice Table is seriously not bad at all.
Unexpected shot number 2. Me looking spacey and feeling my tricep. tsk tsk.
Before you guys forget that this is Mitch's Bday outing, I better show more of her face. haha.
The Girls' groupie photo.
The Boys' groupie photo.
Mitch and I looking so radiant. :)
Viv most prob sharing another one of her stories (again again), and me paying more attention to my fingers instead. :P
Terrible! They made me in charge of the money. I'm so bad with maths, most of the time when I'm suppose to do this, my mind is a complete blank. I'll just collect money and ask who needs change. Look! I was so blur, my specs' sliding off.
Yes the all time making funny faces behind pple's backs Giddy.
Unexpected shot number 3. Ethan pinching his hair. tsk tsk tsk.
Group photo.
Unexpected shot number 4.
It was a great night of gathering and alcohol. haha.
And the next time I go out with Crystal, I'll be ever alert. :P
Ethan signing off.
Cheers to Crystal who's always equipped with a camera and ever ready to snap it away.
And I realize that she has this uncanny ability to take unexpected shots of me. heh.
Mitch's Bday gathering at Rice Table and then Acid Bar.
Cat, Mitch, Viv, and I
Unexpected shot number 1. Viv most probably sharing another of her stories (again), and me taking a bite from my kebab.
Viv and I looking Oh-so-happy, cos the food at Rice Table is seriously not bad at all.
Unexpected shot number 2. Me looking spacey and feeling my tricep. tsk tsk.
Before you guys forget that this is Mitch's Bday outing, I better show more of her face. haha.
The Girls' groupie photo.
The Boys' groupie photo.
Mitch and I looking so radiant. :)
Viv most prob sharing another one of her stories (again again), and me paying more attention to my fingers instead. :P
Terrible! They made me in charge of the money. I'm so bad with maths, most of the time when I'm suppose to do this, my mind is a complete blank. I'll just collect money and ask who needs change. Look! I was so blur, my specs' sliding off.
Yes the all time making funny faces behind pple's backs Giddy.
Unexpected shot number 3. Ethan pinching his hair. tsk tsk tsk.
Group photo.
Unexpected shot number 4.
It was a great night of gathering and alcohol. haha.
And the next time I go out with Crystal, I'll be ever alert. :P
Ethan signing off.
Waltzing.
Monday, May 05, 2008;5.5.08
walking in the rain
It rained very heavily this afternoon when I was on the bus home.
I saw students sharing umbrellas, but umbrellas are useless in these kind of heavy downpour, where the rain falls diagonally due to the strong wind.
Some were just walking in the rain with their friends, without anything to shelter themselves, allowing the rain to fall on them. They were pitifully drenched and looked oh-so-miserable to the people on the bus, and yet, they were sporting smiles on their faces. Some were splashing water at their friends, others kicking water, others just chatted normally and some even were laughing. They didn't seem to be bothered by themselves, nor their bags, or their clothes, getting wet.
And then I tried to recall when was the last time I actually walked in the rain with my group of friends, not bothered about getting myself and my belongings wet. Secondary school? JC?
But that is not the point.
There are so many things that I care now that cannot get wet.
I care about the wax on my hair. I care about getting my handphone wet.
I care about getting my PSP wet. I care whether the rain will soil my clothes.
I care whether my Crumpler will get permanent water stains. I care whether my Mizuno shoes will spoil.
I dun remember being bothered by so many things when I last walked in the rain. And it's not that I was caught in the rain suddenly. We decided to walk in the rain just to... well... walk in the rain!
To be able to do something without burdens is a kind of freedom, which I obviously lost as time passed.
Now I've so many things to care about.
Ethan signing off.
I saw students sharing umbrellas, but umbrellas are useless in these kind of heavy downpour, where the rain falls diagonally due to the strong wind.
Some were just walking in the rain with their friends, without anything to shelter themselves, allowing the rain to fall on them. They were pitifully drenched and looked oh-so-miserable to the people on the bus, and yet, they were sporting smiles on their faces. Some were splashing water at their friends, others kicking water, others just chatted normally and some even were laughing. They didn't seem to be bothered by themselves, nor their bags, or their clothes, getting wet.
And then I tried to recall when was the last time I actually walked in the rain with my group of friends, not bothered about getting myself and my belongings wet. Secondary school? JC?
But that is not the point.
There are so many things that I care now that cannot get wet.
I care about the wax on my hair. I care about getting my handphone wet.
I care about getting my PSP wet. I care whether the rain will soil my clothes.
I care whether my Crumpler will get permanent water stains. I care whether my Mizuno shoes will spoil.
I dun remember being bothered by so many things when I last walked in the rain. And it's not that I was caught in the rain suddenly. We decided to walk in the rain just to... well... walk in the rain!
To be able to do something without burdens is a kind of freedom, which I obviously lost as time passed.
Now I've so many things to care about.
Ethan signing off.
Waltzing.
Wednesday, April 23, 2008;23.4.08
bored
Other than Friday, today is the second day of the week that I stepped out of house, and the smell of fresh air was so refreshing.
Usually I'll daydream on the bus, but this morning on the trip towards the interchange, I didn't know what to think about.
Like it's so weird... so not me...
And all I did was look out of the window, trying to find a spot faraway to keep my eyes on.
Then at Harris, as I was browsing through magazines, normally I'll talk to myself in the head, making comments like, "oh this looks nice, I must get it the next time", or "haha. sure anot? this is so dumb la!", blah blah blah... that kind of thing.
But today, SILENT.
No internal processes at all.
I just flipped through the pages like there's nothing else more interesting to do. And I highly suspect that, other than capturing the colours on the pages, I registered nothing else.
Seriously... what was I even reading just now?!
Decided to have Sakae sushi for dinner. And I coincidentally bumped into Gillian and her friends.
After knowing I'm having dinner alone, she said: "So kelian." And for that one time, I actually did felt a tinge of kelian-ness, although I've never ever felt it before.
Eating alone has always been an enjoyable thing, taking in the moments, no need to rush for anyone, eat at my own pace, dun have to entertain any conversations, just enjoying the time myself thinking about my own thoughts.
BUT TODAY, no thoughts... I wasn't taking in the moments at all.
What has gone wrong?
I think I'm starting to get bored by myself.
Maybe taking up a new hobby will help.
Perhaps it's not even about that.
Then what?
I really have no idea.
Ethan signing off.
Usually I'll daydream on the bus, but this morning on the trip towards the interchange, I didn't know what to think about.
Like it's so weird... so not me...
And all I did was look out of the window, trying to find a spot faraway to keep my eyes on.
Then at Harris, as I was browsing through magazines, normally I'll talk to myself in the head, making comments like, "oh this looks nice, I must get it the next time", or "haha. sure anot? this is so dumb la!", blah blah blah... that kind of thing.
But today, SILENT.
No internal processes at all.
I just flipped through the pages like there's nothing else more interesting to do. And I highly suspect that, other than capturing the colours on the pages, I registered nothing else.
Seriously... what was I even reading just now?!
Decided to have Sakae sushi for dinner. And I coincidentally bumped into Gillian and her friends.
After knowing I'm having dinner alone, she said: "So kelian." And for that one time, I actually did felt a tinge of kelian-ness, although I've never ever felt it before.
Eating alone has always been an enjoyable thing, taking in the moments, no need to rush for anyone, eat at my own pace, dun have to entertain any conversations, just enjoying the time myself thinking about my own thoughts.
BUT TODAY, no thoughts... I wasn't taking in the moments at all.
What has gone wrong?
I think I'm starting to get bored by myself.
Maybe taking up a new hobby will help.
Perhaps it's not even about that.
Then what?
I really have no idea.
Ethan signing off.
Waltzing.
Sunday, April 20, 2008;20.4.08
Kingdom Hearts: Birth by Sleep
It's coming to the PSP!!!!!
Oohhhh. I LOVE my PSP. :)
Ethan signing off.
Waltzing.
Thursday, April 17, 2008;17.4.08
let's share a moment of unglamness.
Ok. My friend posted this super unglam photo of us on his blog. No more image liao...
And since the damage has been done, I might as well post it on my blog too. heh.
Unglam photos are super fun.
I DARE all of you to post ur unglam photos. :P
Let's share a moment of unglamness, and have a great laugh about it.
Maybe then, the world will be a happier place.
Ethan signing off.
And since the damage has been done, I might as well post it on my blog too. heh.
Unglam photos are super fun.
I DARE all of you to post ur unglam photos. :P
Let's share a moment of unglamness, and have a great laugh about it.
Maybe then, the world will be a happier place.
Ethan signing off.
Waltzing.
Monday, April 07, 2008;7.4.08
questions
Why allow one bad episode to destroy a friendship?
What happened to all the many beautiful memories?
How come one mere bad episode is allowed to shatter the rest of the many beautiful memories?
Why can't it be the other way round?
Why can't the many beautiful memories overshadow that one bad episode?
Why are the bad things being held on so firmly, while the good ones so easily forgotten?
Ethan signing off.
What happened to all the many beautiful memories?
How come one mere bad episode is allowed to shatter the rest of the many beautiful memories?
Why can't it be the other way round?
Why can't the many beautiful memories overshadow that one bad episode?
Why are the bad things being held on so firmly, while the good ones so easily forgotten?
Ethan signing off.
Waltzing.
Thursday, April 03, 2008;3.4.08
Crisis Core.
Been playing Crisis Core: Final Fantasy 7 over the weekend, and it has blown me away time and time again.
One such time was when Aerith appeared. I mean... any gamer out there (who plays FF7 anyway) knows Aerith. She's like the babe of the videogames. THE BABE.
And you really cannot imagine the emotions going through me when I saw her. Seeing her, who's supposed to be 'dead', alive infront of me is... WOW. For those uninformed, she was killed in the middle of FF7 to the horrors of Aerith-lovers. Yes! Killed! How can they kill off Aerith just like that? She was one of the main characters leh. You dun anyhow kill off THE BABE in a game. TSK.
Anyway, FF7 was many years back le, but people still remember Aerith. And so her appearance in Crisis Core is really a rejoicing matter for us, the Aerith-lovers. :)
Again for the uninitiated, Crisis Core is a prequel to FF7, so Aerith was still alive then.
The other breathtaking moment has to be the epic battle between Genesis, Angeal and Sephiroth.
This is probably one of the best, if not the best, fighting scenes I've ever watched.
Look at how Sephiroth cut up the cannon like sausage. :P
Thereotically, Cloud couldn't have won him.
But we all know how good must triumph the evil. Like it's a rule. Cliche~
OH! Sephiroth's the villian who killed Aerith.
Damn bastard.
Nonetheless, a cool bastardy villian.
Ethan signing off.
One such time was when Aerith appeared. I mean... any gamer out there (who plays FF7 anyway) knows Aerith. She's like the babe of the videogames. THE BABE.
And you really cannot imagine the emotions going through me when I saw her. Seeing her, who's supposed to be 'dead', alive infront of me is... WOW. For those uninformed, she was killed in the middle of FF7 to the horrors of Aerith-lovers. Yes! Killed! How can they kill off Aerith just like that? She was one of the main characters leh. You dun anyhow kill off THE BABE in a game. TSK.
Anyway, FF7 was many years back le, but people still remember Aerith. And so her appearance in Crisis Core is really a rejoicing matter for us, the Aerith-lovers. :)
Again for the uninitiated, Crisis Core is a prequel to FF7, so Aerith was still alive then.
The other breathtaking moment has to be the epic battle between Genesis, Angeal and Sephiroth.
This is probably one of the best, if not the best, fighting scenes I've ever watched.
Look at how Sephiroth cut up the cannon like sausage. :P
Thereotically, Cloud couldn't have won him.
But we all know how good must triumph the evil. Like it's a rule. Cliche~
OH! Sephiroth's the villian who killed Aerith.
Damn bastard.
Nonetheless, a cool bastardy villian.
Ethan signing off.
Waltzing.
Monday, March 31, 2008;31.3.08
birthday multiple of birth month
24th March! A day worth celebrating! haha. Ok but I started it off with project meeting in school. Even though I was kept busy with all the birthday smses coming in. Thanks all who sent me your well wishes! I really appreciate them.
Especially to those whom I've not been keeping in contact with. Glad you guys remembered.
One of such friend, simply smsed me because she remembered my birthday is a multiple of my birth month. I was like... ??!! Super chim la!
Presentation today went well and we are glad things turned out this way cos we really put in lots of time and effort in doing up all the things. All the designing nearly made me go crazy. haha. And the rest of the gang did up so much too for the proj. Like the ppt slides and the decor and the printing of the creatives... So much work but I think we had lots of fun. :)
Cammie and I. Both of us presented.
Oh and SIM gang, if you can't see properly from the previous photo, this is evidence of me wearing the tie and the cufflings you all got for me. :)
Went out for dinner with family at the Old Airport Road hawker centre. Feast!
BBQ chicken wings, Rojak, ju qiong fan with prawn fillings and a dish of vege.
Of cos the main star dish was the BLACK PEPPER CRAB!!!!
oooohhhhh. I love crabs.
Crab eating is like war to me.
When I have my hands on a piece of crab, I'll make it a point to deshell it nicely, as far as possible, bit by bit, so that the flesh will not be torn and remain as a whole chunk. Only after that, i'll savour the whole piece of juicy crab meat. heh. The shells must scraped off even bits of flesh stuck to them, and every tool is used to dig at every tiny corner for flesh, be it chopsticks or toothpicks or the pincer shell part of the crab. No obstacles stand between me and my crab meat. And it's a messy affair, cos breaking and hammering and twisting and biting and knocking are involven so shells fly around me when I 'fight my war' with my er.... cooked crab.
Right. A blink of an eye, 24th March is over and 25th is here.
King to peasant.
Ethan signing off.
Especially to those whom I've not been keeping in contact with. Glad you guys remembered.
One of such friend, simply smsed me because she remembered my birthday is a multiple of my birth month. I was like... ??!! Super chim la!
Presentation today went well and we are glad things turned out this way cos we really put in lots of time and effort in doing up all the things. All the designing nearly made me go crazy. haha. And the rest of the gang did up so much too for the proj. Like the ppt slides and the decor and the printing of the creatives... So much work but I think we had lots of fun. :)
Cammie and I. Both of us presented.
Oh and SIM gang, if you can't see properly from the previous photo, this is evidence of me wearing the tie and the cufflings you all got for me. :)
Went out for dinner with family at the Old Airport Road hawker centre. Feast!
BBQ chicken wings, Rojak, ju qiong fan with prawn fillings and a dish of vege.
Of cos the main star dish was the BLACK PEPPER CRAB!!!!
oooohhhhh. I love crabs.
Crab eating is like war to me.
When I have my hands on a piece of crab, I'll make it a point to deshell it nicely, as far as possible, bit by bit, so that the flesh will not be torn and remain as a whole chunk. Only after that, i'll savour the whole piece of juicy crab meat. heh. The shells must scraped off even bits of flesh stuck to them, and every tool is used to dig at every tiny corner for flesh, be it chopsticks or toothpicks or the pincer shell part of the crab. No obstacles stand between me and my crab meat. And it's a messy affair, cos breaking and hammering and twisting and biting and knocking are involven so shells fly around me when I 'fight my war' with my er.... cooked crab.
Right. A blink of an eye, 24th March is over and 25th is here.
King to peasant.
Ethan signing off.
Waltzing.
Monday, March 24, 2008;24.3.08
a not so surprising surprise.
I'm really touched by the SIM gang.
Met up with them on Wednesday night for a gathering where they 'surprised' me with a cake and a birthday present.
And why 'surprised' is in inverted commas?
Cos earlier tat day I was in school doing proj in the afternoon when I saw Vivien online on msn, and I told her that I couldn't turn up for the gathering due to unfinished proj work. I intended to go home to rush finish some work and so asked whether can postpone and insisted I couldn't fork out the time. I was so adamant about it till she had no choice but to reveal the surprise they have in store for me. haha.
Although that night I had to stay up till 4am to finish my work. :/
Still I'm totally glad I turned up for the gathering, cos I've not seen some of them for so long! We've not been meeting up often and I'm relieved to see that none of them has really changed too much. haha. I'm sounding like we've not met for years instead of months!
Even though months really seem like years this semester.
And the SIM gang are so sweet to give me a birthday present. Look at what they bought for me... I simply love them. Present and gang alike. heh.
A very nice pink clear case with a tie and a box of cufflings. Together with a pack of dividers so that the case can be used as a namecard holder. Functional.
A very beautiful pink tie.
Treble clef cufflings. Hoho. So cute.
And I've a feeling I'm going to use the tie soon.
Like for next week's proj presentation.
Thanks SIM gang!
Oh and I'll try to make the 1st April KTV happen.
No. It's not a April Fool's joke.
:)
Ethan signing off.
Met up with them on Wednesday night for a gathering where they 'surprised' me with a cake and a birthday present.
And why 'surprised' is in inverted commas?
Cos earlier tat day I was in school doing proj in the afternoon when I saw Vivien online on msn, and I told her that I couldn't turn up for the gathering due to unfinished proj work. I intended to go home to rush finish some work and so asked whether can postpone and insisted I couldn't fork out the time. I was so adamant about it till she had no choice but to reveal the surprise they have in store for me. haha.
Although that night I had to stay up till 4am to finish my work. :/
Still I'm totally glad I turned up for the gathering, cos I've not seen some of them for so long! We've not been meeting up often and I'm relieved to see that none of them has really changed too much. haha. I'm sounding like we've not met for years instead of months!
Even though months really seem like years this semester.
And the SIM gang are so sweet to give me a birthday present. Look at what they bought for me... I simply love them. Present and gang alike. heh.
A very nice pink clear case with a tie and a box of cufflings. Together with a pack of dividers so that the case can be used as a namecard holder. Functional.
A very beautiful pink tie.
Treble clef cufflings. Hoho. So cute.
And I've a feeling I'm going to use the tie soon.
Like for next week's proj presentation.
Thanks SIM gang!
Oh and I'll try to make the 1st April KTV happen.
No. It's not a April Fool's joke.
:)
Ethan signing off.
Waltzing.
Friday, March 21, 2008;21.3.08
Ethan's fantasy world
I'm deprived of my fantasy world.
Fullmetal 17 is lying on my right, and I dun have the time nor the energy to even flip through the first few chapters. Just bought Naruto 40, lagging a few pieces behind One Piece and Tsubasa Chronicles alike.
It's lucky I'm still able to at least immerse myself in Ivalice time and time as a Knight, though I'm actually considering changing my job to a Monk. Not really a cool job, but only after that can I progress into a Geomancer, and finally a Ninja. And Ninja's the cool one, cos he can equip two swords and attack twice.
The Dark Knight job is just too tough to achieve.
Fighting Morpheus' nighmares in Oplympus isn't that bad too, but fingers tend to get a little sore after wielding and swinging those axe-like-blades. And wat the heck! The bosses actually regain life if I dun perform according to the button sequence.
Of cos, commanding my little minions with my drums and hearing them exalt me as 'Almighty Kean' just tickles me in the right way. Plus their victory cry is undeniably cute and addicts me to sing out the cry with them. But when can I use Mater, the tree of life, to create the minion with the horns? It looks damn cool with the flaming spear lah!
Dun even talk about anime. Kosong.
Ethan signing off.
Fullmetal 17 is lying on my right, and I dun have the time nor the energy to even flip through the first few chapters. Just bought Naruto 40, lagging a few pieces behind One Piece and Tsubasa Chronicles alike.
It's lucky I'm still able to at least immerse myself in Ivalice time and time as a Knight, though I'm actually considering changing my job to a Monk. Not really a cool job, but only after that can I progress into a Geomancer, and finally a Ninja. And Ninja's the cool one, cos he can equip two swords and attack twice.
The Dark Knight job is just too tough to achieve.
Fighting Morpheus' nighmares in Oplympus isn't that bad too, but fingers tend to get a little sore after wielding and swinging those axe-like-blades. And wat the heck! The bosses actually regain life if I dun perform according to the button sequence.
Of cos, commanding my little minions with my drums and hearing them exalt me as 'Almighty Kean' just tickles me in the right way. Plus their victory cry is undeniably cute and addicts me to sing out the cry with them. But when can I use Mater, the tree of life, to create the minion with the horns? It looks damn cool with the flaming spear lah!
Dun even talk about anime. Kosong.
Ethan signing off.
Waltzing.
Wednesday, March 19, 2008;19.3.08
It's in the absence
"Did God create everything that exists?
If God created everything, then he created evil.
Since evil exists, so God is evil?"
That's what the world is saying.
But does cold exist?
In fact, cold does not exist.
According to the laws of physics, what we consider cold is in reality the absence of heat. Absolute Zero is the total absence of heat, but cold does not exist as such. What we have done is create a term to describe how we feel if we don't have body heat or we are not hot.
And does darkness really exist?
Physically, darkness does not exist.
We can study light, but not darkness. How can you know how dark a certain space is? You measure the amount of light present. Darkness is a term used by man to describe what happens when there is no light present.
So does evil exist?
Evil does not exist, at least it does not exist unto itself.
Evil is simply the absence of God. It is just like darkness and cold - a word that man has created to describe the absence of God.
God did not create evil.
Evil is not like faith, or love, that exist just as does light and heat. Evil is the result of what happens when man does not have God's love present in his heart. It's like the cold that comes when there is no heat, or the darkness that comes when there is no light.
Ethan signing off.
If God created everything, then he created evil.
Since evil exists, so God is evil?"
That's what the world is saying.
But does cold exist?
In fact, cold does not exist.
According to the laws of physics, what we consider cold is in reality the absence of heat. Absolute Zero is the total absence of heat, but cold does not exist as such. What we have done is create a term to describe how we feel if we don't have body heat or we are not hot.
And does darkness really exist?
Physically, darkness does not exist.
We can study light, but not darkness. How can you know how dark a certain space is? You measure the amount of light present. Darkness is a term used by man to describe what happens when there is no light present.
So does evil exist?
Evil does not exist, at least it does not exist unto itself.
Evil is simply the absence of God. It is just like darkness and cold - a word that man has created to describe the absence of God.
God did not create evil.
Evil is not like faith, or love, that exist just as does light and heat. Evil is the result of what happens when man does not have God's love present in his heart. It's like the cold that comes when there is no heat, or the darkness that comes when there is no light.
Ethan signing off.
Waltzing.
Saturday, March 15, 2008;15.3.08
not so joyous.
Whether it's the El Niño effect or the La Niña effect causing this few consecutive days of downpour, I hope it stops soon.
Cos the weather temperature is freezing my fingers and affecting my health. Getting ill at this point of time isn't really a good thing, becos it disrupts my schedule and hiccups my whole proj-doing timetable.
Yes, the first entry after 2 weeks of not posting is just an entry of complaint.
What to do?
Cos on a rainy day, yours truly hate to do anything else other than staying at home to sleep.
Hope my next entry is of a joyous one.
Ethan signing off.
Cos the weather temperature is freezing my fingers and affecting my health. Getting ill at this point of time isn't really a good thing, becos it disrupts my schedule and hiccups my whole proj-doing timetable.
Yes, the first entry after 2 weeks of not posting is just an entry of complaint.
What to do?
Cos on a rainy day, yours truly hate to do anything else other than staying at home to sleep.
Hope my next entry is of a joyous one.
Ethan signing off.
Waltzing.
Friday, March 14, 2008;14.3.08
a night at dempsey
Met up with Wendy, Ya Shuen, Matt and Tiangster for a belated birthday celebration for Wendy. Went to a number of places but changed venues and eventually ended up in Dempsey for dinner and supper.
Dinner @ House wasn't that bad, and supper @ P.S Cafe was superb. The best, of cos, was the company and we had a good time catching up and chatting about... hmmm... actually alot of things! haha.
It was a great night, and I hope Wendy enjoyed our company.
Happy belated birthday to you once again! (if you're actually reading this) heh.
Throughout the night, we wanted to take a group photo, but somehow forgot about it until we were in the cab on the way home. The nice driver uncle allowed to take all 5 of us. Very kind of him.
Of cos 1 photo couldn't take in all 5, as Tiangster was sitting in front, and so we had to take 2 photos.
But still... 2 photos are better than none. :)
Ethan signing off.
Dinner @ House wasn't that bad, and supper @ P.S Cafe was superb. The best, of cos, was the company and we had a good time catching up and chatting about... hmmm... actually alot of things! haha.
It was a great night, and I hope Wendy enjoyed our company.
Happy belated birthday to you once again! (if you're actually reading this) heh.
Throughout the night, we wanted to take a group photo, but somehow forgot about it until we were in the cab on the way home. The nice driver uncle allowed to take all 5 of us. Very kind of him.
Of cos 1 photo couldn't take in all 5, as Tiangster was sitting in front, and so we had to take 2 photos.
But still... 2 photos are better than none. :)
Ethan signing off.
Waltzing.
Saturday, March 01, 2008;1.3.08
question
Ethan signing off
Waltzing.
Thursday, February 21, 2008;21.2.08
gaming once more
Went to Darren's place to play his Wii set on Saturday and I'm feeling a little muscleache at my right 'wing'. Must be due to all the intensive swinging of the controller, either trying to hit the baseball, or the tennis ball.
Oh the tennis game! I was basically jumping around the living room and swinging the controller in a desperate attempt to properly send the tennis ball in the right direction. I give myself a negative 5 score for aim. :P
What can I say?
Not good in sports in the real world, not good in sports in the video gaming world.
I GIVE UP ON SPORTS.
Anyway this so brought back my gaming spirit, and I now want to buy a PSP slim. :)
Looking around for a good price, so any lobang pls let me know.
And I think I'll touch the PS2 sitting below my TV soon, when I have time on my hands, not bothered by school work and readings and irritating projects.
With the gaming spirit rekindled, where the hell do I find those pirated game sellers?
>:P
Ethan signing off.
Oh the tennis game! I was basically jumping around the living room and swinging the controller in a desperate attempt to properly send the tennis ball in the right direction. I give myself a negative 5 score for aim. :P
What can I say?
Not good in sports in the real world, not good in sports in the video gaming world.
I GIVE UP ON SPORTS.
Anyway this so brought back my gaming spirit, and I now want to buy a PSP slim. :)
Looking around for a good price, so any lobang pls let me know.
And I think I'll touch the PS2 sitting below my TV soon, when I have time on my hands, not bothered by school work and readings and irritating projects.
With the gaming spirit rekindled, where the hell do I find those pirated game sellers?
>:P
Ethan signing off.
Waltzing.
Monday, February 18, 2008;18.2.08
i want to fade out
This time I've really taken a long break from blogging, and I guess my heart's shutting away. There aren't many things I want to share anymore.
Lunar new year just passed and it went like a gust of wind. If not for the ang pao money in my bank account now, I wouldn't have felt it come and go.
Like how I cannot feel Valentine's although it's tmr. But I guess that's exceptional cos I'm single and that day is just another day for me. In fact, I already know that I'm going to spend Vday working on projects.
Wat else...
oh.
I unknowlingly fell into a heap of 'complexities'. It's so complicated, I can't even think of an appropriate word for it other than 'complexities'. Sounds like a disease, and I guess 'disease' seems like a very apt word here too.
It's complicated, cos I went back on all my principles, and I'm like digging a trap to jump in.
And the worst part?
I'm liking it and I can't help myself from liking it.
Somebody should save me.
Ethan signing off.
Lunar new year just passed and it went like a gust of wind. If not for the ang pao money in my bank account now, I wouldn't have felt it come and go.
Like how I cannot feel Valentine's although it's tmr. But I guess that's exceptional cos I'm single and that day is just another day for me. In fact, I already know that I'm going to spend Vday working on projects.
Wat else...
oh.
I unknowlingly fell into a heap of 'complexities'. It's so complicated, I can't even think of an appropriate word for it other than 'complexities'. Sounds like a disease, and I guess 'disease' seems like a very apt word here too.
It's complicated, cos I went back on all my principles, and I'm like digging a trap to jump in.
And the worst part?
I'm liking it and I can't help myself from liking it.
Somebody should save me.
Ethan signing off.
Waltzing.
Wednesday, February 13, 2008;13.2.08
becos turn backs hurt...
If I can, I'll hop into my car and step on the accelerator with full force.
Not to see how fast I can go,
but to see how far I can reach.
Without turning back.
Ethan signing off.
Waltzing.
Tuesday, January 29, 2008;29.1.08
你会看不出来
[鸵鸟] - 元卫觉醒
你说不爱了 于是我就承担
不问我心里想的是相反
阳光很灿烂 我却笑不出来
它让我看清楚你已离开
我忍着悲伤和无奈
就躲在房间不出来
无法阻挡时间在快转
只能把爱藏在回忆深海
不想面对的事 学着习惯成自然
我会把爱隐藏到谁都看不出来
它还在继续 却与你无关
你说不爱了 于是我就承担
不问我心里想的是相反
阳光很灿烂 我却笑不出来
它让我看清楚你已离开
那动人完美的独白
没说完你就先离开
就算遗憾我也不推翻
只能把爱藏在回忆深海
不想面对的事 学着习惯成自然
我会把爱隐藏到谁都看不出来
它还在继续 却与你无关
这不是鸵鸟的心态
只是我还无法释怀
我还爱你再不会说出来
只能把爱藏在回忆深海
不想面对的事 学着习惯成自然
我会把爱隐藏到谁都看不出来
它还在继续 却与你无关
只能让爱离开回忆深海
不想面对的事只能学着习惯成自然
对你的爱 沉默了 让我却还在依赖
你要的幸福 却与我无关
你要的幸福 却与我无关
Ethan signing off.
Waltzing.
Sunday, January 20, 2008;20.1.08
wearing back the No.4
I dunno whether I'm contradicting myself.
Although I'm unhappy about the fact that I didn't manage to defer from my reservist, I'm quite glad that I took part in this ICT.
One week has passed, and so far it's not a bad experience, quite fun actually. Riding in Lim Chu Kang area on bike topo, getting my whole body wet with water in my boots during carrier boat training, wearing my SBO which I've not donned for so long.
Things which I've done before, but just feels so different doing them as a NSman instead of NSF, and I love being an NSman. haha.
This is my first in camp and many of my fellow army mates weren't called back due to full time studies in NUS/NTU/SMU. I dun really want to talk about the unfair treatment they are giving to SIM students.
The thing is, I'm the youngest in the whole company!
People gasp when they see my NRIC starts with 84. haha. Most are at least 5 years older.
It was an unfamiliar feeling at first, but it's good that I'm a 'new bird', cos the 'old birds' will give much guidance and offer to help do some stuff for us. And they are super friendly.
One more week to go, with a 2 days 1 night outfield mission, but I dun think it'll be much of a problem since I've done missions which are longer.
Just that my old injured back is still giving me problems whenever I run, and foot rot is showing signs of coming back.
My late night sleeping habit has been changed during this ICT, and I reckon that's a good thing.
Which also explains why I'm feeling so sleepy right now.
Alright. See you guys in a weeks time.
Ethan signing off.
Although I'm unhappy about the fact that I didn't manage to defer from my reservist, I'm quite glad that I took part in this ICT.
One week has passed, and so far it's not a bad experience, quite fun actually. Riding in Lim Chu Kang area on bike topo, getting my whole body wet with water in my boots during carrier boat training, wearing my SBO which I've not donned for so long.
Things which I've done before, but just feels so different doing them as a NSman instead of NSF, and I love being an NSman. haha.
This is my first in camp and many of my fellow army mates weren't called back due to full time studies in NUS/NTU/SMU. I dun really want to talk about the unfair treatment they are giving to SIM students.
The thing is, I'm the youngest in the whole company!
People gasp when they see my NRIC starts with 84. haha. Most are at least 5 years older.
It was an unfamiliar feeling at first, but it's good that I'm a 'new bird', cos the 'old birds' will give much guidance and offer to help do some stuff for us. And they are super friendly.
One more week to go, with a 2 days 1 night outfield mission, but I dun think it'll be much of a problem since I've done missions which are longer.
Just that my old injured back is still giving me problems whenever I run, and foot rot is showing signs of coming back.
My late night sleeping habit has been changed during this ICT, and I reckon that's a good thing.
Which also explains why I'm feeling so sleepy right now.
Alright. See you guys in a weeks time.
Ethan signing off.
Waltzing.
;20.1.08
I lied
Ok. I lied about my age. I'm actually 19.
;P
Alot of my friends say I dun look nor behave like my age, but much younger.
Which is not necessary a good or bad thing.
It's just the way I am.
I've got friends who feel so insulted when people say they look or behave young, cos they automatically assume that comment to mean they are childish and not matured enough.
I've got friends who will be so happy though.
Heh. You know who you are.
Just dun assumingly equate things.
Youthful behaviour doesn't have to clash with maturity in thinking.
One thing is sure though, when the matters of the heart is involved, everyone behaves like a child.
[像个小孩] -- 元卫觉醒
Like a child holding on to his favourite toy, it's hard to let go.
Ethan signing off.
;P
Alot of my friends say I dun look nor behave like my age, but much younger.
Which is not necessary a good or bad thing.
It's just the way I am.
I've got friends who feel so insulted when people say they look or behave young, cos they automatically assume that comment to mean they are childish and not matured enough.
I've got friends who will be so happy though.
Heh. You know who you are.
Just dun assumingly equate things.
Youthful behaviour doesn't have to clash with maturity in thinking.
One thing is sure though, when the matters of the heart is involved, everyone behaves like a child.
[像个小孩] -- 元卫觉醒
Like a child holding on to his favourite toy, it's hard to let go.
Ethan signing off.
Waltzing.
Wednesday, January 09, 2008;9.1.08
money, love and clothes
Didn't go school today, because I was ill.
I suspect it's something I ate the night before. If I ever know what that is, I'll never ever eat it for the rest of my life! Cos I really had a torturous morning.
Was kept up by the diarrhoea from 3am all the way to 6am!! There was constant pain, and I could feel my stomach churning, and I was passing out er.. 'stuff'... which you guys dun want to know in detail... but I'll just say it's so fluid, imagining a running faucet will bring you close to what happened.
And it lasted for 3 hours!
I was so sick, and tired, and exhausted at the end of it...
Although I'm already feeling better after an entire day of rest. Surely, since there's nothing left 'inside' me to make me feel ill anymore. haha.
So what did I do on my stay home day?
Surf the net, of cos, like what else?... My life is so boring.
Since Chinese New Year is just around the corner, like what I've said before, it's time to buy new year clothes.
Checked out one of my favourite brands, namely Reef, for some nice looking tops.
Alright. The reason I like Reef is so bloody obvious.
If you haven noticed, YOU MUST BE BLIND.
I rest my case. heh.
I dun really understand why clothes are never enough.
I can understand why money is never enough, and why love is never enough, but clothes?
Baffles me always.
Ethan needs money, love and clothes.
Ethan signing off.
I suspect it's something I ate the night before. If I ever know what that is, I'll never ever eat it for the rest of my life! Cos I really had a torturous morning.
Was kept up by the diarrhoea from 3am all the way to 6am!! There was constant pain, and I could feel my stomach churning, and I was passing out er.. 'stuff'... which you guys dun want to know in detail... but I'll just say it's so fluid, imagining a running faucet will bring you close to what happened.
And it lasted for 3 hours!
I was so sick, and tired, and exhausted at the end of it...
Although I'm already feeling better after an entire day of rest. Surely, since there's nothing left 'inside' me to make me feel ill anymore. haha.
So what did I do on my stay home day?
Surf the net, of cos, like what else?... My life is so boring.
Since Chinese New Year is just around the corner, like what I've said before, it's time to buy new year clothes.
Checked out one of my favourite brands, namely Reef, for some nice looking tops.
Alright. The reason I like Reef is so bloody obvious.
If you haven noticed, YOU MUST BE BLIND.
I rest my case. heh.
I dun really understand why clothes are never enough.
I can understand why money is never enough, and why love is never enough, but clothes?
Baffles me always.
Ethan needs money, love and clothes.
Ethan signing off.
Waltzing.
Tuesday, January 08, 2008;8.1.08
if you really want to know...
Ethan signing off.
Waltzing.
Friday, January 04, 2008;4.1.08
2008's first
I missed blogging on the first day of 2008 and I thought I'll blog happily on the 2nd day instead.
But I was woken up by drilling noise at 9am! And the drilling continued till noon. Of cos I tried to sleep through it still, even though I awake time and time again.
The point is, I didn't exactly start my 2nd day of the year happily.
Oh well, school's starting tmr for me so I'll just treat this as a way to adjust back my bio clock.
School's going to be quite different since all my closer SIM gang are no longer around, and everything's going back to square one in terms of finding project mates and etc. It's just one more semester to go and I know I'll get by it closing an eye and clenching my teeth.
Hmmm. There's not much that I'm REALLY looking forward to in the 2008 year, other than my graduation, which hopefully I will graduate. Heh.
But even after that, it'll mark another phase of my life which I'm not so looking forward to.
If I really must say something else, it'll be Chinese New Year, which is early February. And that means WE CAN START BUYING NEW YEAR CLOTHES!
........
Tat's about it I guess.
2007 had me go through a number of changes in my life, some of it are good, some of them not so. But the past has passed, and all we can do is to look in the present and the future.
I hope 2008 is an exciting year for, not only myself, everyone!
May my love fall from the sky one day in 2008. >:P
Ethan signing off.
But I was woken up by drilling noise at 9am! And the drilling continued till noon. Of cos I tried to sleep through it still, even though I awake time and time again.
The point is, I didn't exactly start my 2nd day of the year happily.
Oh well, school's starting tmr for me so I'll just treat this as a way to adjust back my bio clock.
School's going to be quite different since all my closer SIM gang are no longer around, and everything's going back to square one in terms of finding project mates and etc. It's just one more semester to go and I know I'll get by it closing an eye and clenching my teeth.
Hmmm. There's not much that I'm REALLY looking forward to in the 2008 year, other than my graduation, which hopefully I will graduate. Heh.
But even after that, it'll mark another phase of my life which I'm not so looking forward to.
If I really must say something else, it'll be Chinese New Year, which is early February. And that means WE CAN START BUYING NEW YEAR CLOTHES!
........
Tat's about it I guess.
2007 had me go through a number of changes in my life, some of it are good, some of them not so. But the past has passed, and all we can do is to look in the present and the future.
I hope 2008 is an exciting year for, not only myself, everyone!
May my love fall from the sky one day in 2008. >:P
Ethan signing off.
Waltzing.
Wednesday, January 02, 2008;2.1.08
ethan needs more than 2 more minutes
It's Friday and I'm 'slothing' at home. So not in a going out mood. Feeling lazy and lethargic. Even the internet is boring me.
Worse is that mum's cooking porridge for dinner. yucks...
Porridge is 'sickly food'. As in it's meant for sick people.
I totally do not delight in eating porridge.
What a bad Friday.
Maybe I should just go lie on my bed and close my eyes.
And daydream.
Or continue forgetting.
Although 2 minutes up long ago.
Ethan signing off.
Worse is that mum's cooking porridge for dinner. yucks...
Porridge is 'sickly food'. As in it's meant for sick people.
I totally do not delight in eating porridge.
What a bad Friday.
Maybe I should just go lie on my bed and close my eyes.
And daydream.
Or continue forgetting.
Although 2 minutes up long ago.
Ethan signing off.
Waltzing.
Friday, December 28, 2007;28.12.07
kuku
Me and Crystal posing for Coreen's multishot camera function.
One of the wednesdays, I can't remember when.
But that's not important.
The point is both of us look super kuku in the photos. haha!
Ethan signing off.
Waltzing.
Monday, December 24, 2007;24.12.07
lend me a hundred.
Been awhile since my last post, and still I've nothing much to update.
Other than SAF disapproving my deferment from ICT which is going to rob 7 days of my school lectures. Dumb ass. Students from private unis not students is it...
I'm definitely going to send another appeal for deferment, and if it isn't the Christmas season now I most prob will add in vulgarities. heh.
Oh well, let's wait for Christmas to end first then.
But wait, there are 12 days of Christmas!!
Darn.
It'll be a lie to say I'm feeling 'Christmasy'.
Nope. Not much feeling that the season's here.
My arm's flaking with burnt dead skin and that may resemble abit like snowflakes though, but yeah, that's all of a reminder I get.
OK. Absolutely nothing else to write le.
Let's just end by throwing in an MV to remind all of you gift buying folks that you're actually getting quite poor. >:P
我的哀 说来感慨 每次钱总刚好不在口袋
说出来有几个人真正明白
我的哀~ 呜呜呜~
借我一百块!
Ethan signing off
Other than SAF disapproving my deferment from ICT which is going to rob 7 days of my school lectures. Dumb ass. Students from private unis not students is it...
I'm definitely going to send another appeal for deferment, and if it isn't the Christmas season now I most prob will add in vulgarities. heh.
Oh well, let's wait for Christmas to end first then.
But wait, there are 12 days of Christmas!!
Darn.
It'll be a lie to say I'm feeling 'Christmasy'.
Nope. Not much feeling that the season's here.
My arm's flaking with burnt dead skin and that may resemble abit like snowflakes though, but yeah, that's all of a reminder I get.
OK. Absolutely nothing else to write le.
Let's just end by throwing in an MV to remind all of you gift buying folks that you're actually getting quite poor. >:P
我的哀 说来感慨 每次钱总刚好不在口袋
说出来有几个人真正明白
我的哀~ 呜呜呜~
借我一百块!
Ethan signing off
Waltzing.
Saturday, December 22, 2007;22.12.07
Post krabi
I followed my heart and I'm back from Krabi!
Krabi was good.
But, I'm now peeling on my face,
and my shoulders are burnt and red,
and I'm heaty with a sore throat,
plus I've got a huge ulcer on my gums.
Post-Krabi is NOT good at all.
Oh well. Await for photos. :)
Ethan signing off.
Krabi was good.
But, I'm now peeling on my face,
and my shoulders are burnt and red,
and I'm heaty with a sore throat,
plus I've got a huge ulcer on my gums.
Post-Krabi is NOT good at all.
Oh well. Await for photos. :)
Ethan signing off.
Waltzing.
Saturday, December 15, 2007;15.12.07
heart follower
Here I am again, complaining about the weather.
It's super cranky. It just rained and stopped and rained and stopped again in the past hour and more. Like what the heck is going on... >:/
The sun's out again. And I hope it stays. Cos I'm going clubbing later. heh. And I went yesterday, and on wednesday. Oh no, I'm turning into a party animal. MEOW~!
Leaving for Krabi tmr with the SIM gang and I haven even started packing my luggage. Not that I'm really concern about that since I'm a fast packer, and I'll only be away for like 4 days so it'll be like packing for camp while I was in the army. :)
Oh yes! I better remember to change money later.
Heard that Krabi's all about the watersports, but I'm hoping there will be some cheap shopping that can be done. I dig at buying cheapstuff. heh.
I want berms and t-shirts and caps and many more.
My sister also asked me to help her buy stuff, but I'm going to just forget about her. hah.
No lah. I'm not so evil. But I highly suspect I'll 'accidentally' forget. :P
Kinda looking forward to the trip although I'm super blur about the itinerary. I hardly know what time is my departure and arrival of my flight! Then again, no worries about that cos I'll just ask the dudes tmr. :)
If you haven noticed, yep, I'm a carefree soul. haha.
hmmm. My fingers are itching so I'm off to play some piano, won't be able to do tat for one week. :/
Oh well, maybe I'll update again real soon, like tmr before I leave?
haha. See how lah.
I follow my heart. :)
Ethan signing off.
It's super cranky. It just rained and stopped and rained and stopped again in the past hour and more. Like what the heck is going on... >:/
The sun's out again. And I hope it stays. Cos I'm going clubbing later. heh. And I went yesterday, and on wednesday. Oh no, I'm turning into a party animal. MEOW~!
Leaving for Krabi tmr with the SIM gang and I haven even started packing my luggage. Not that I'm really concern about that since I'm a fast packer, and I'll only be away for like 4 days so it'll be like packing for camp while I was in the army. :)
Oh yes! I better remember to change money later.
Heard that Krabi's all about the watersports, but I'm hoping there will be some cheap shopping that can be done. I dig at buying cheapstuff. heh.
I want berms and t-shirts and caps and many more.
My sister also asked me to help her buy stuff, but I'm going to just forget about her. hah.
No lah. I'm not so evil. But I highly suspect I'll 'accidentally' forget. :P
Kinda looking forward to the trip although I'm super blur about the itinerary. I hardly know what time is my departure and arrival of my flight! Then again, no worries about that cos I'll just ask the dudes tmr. :)
If you haven noticed, yep, I'm a carefree soul. haha.
hmmm. My fingers are itching so I'm off to play some piano, won't be able to do tat for one week. :/
Oh well, maybe I'll update again real soon, like tmr before I leave?
haha. See how lah.
I follow my heart. :)
Ethan signing off.
Waltzing.
Sunday, December 09, 2007;9.12.07